Umm a little drunk now..  wenta dunno which pub to drink just now. I know it's illegal for an under18 to drink.. feel so bad now. but anyway it wasnt my first time drinking.. in fact, ive drank once or twice before.. and it was my dad who taught me to.. he didnt encourage me to drink but just wanted me to try,.. and i remember he once said, I will be drinking a lot next time to entertain clients.. i guess it's 'cause that was like about 6 years ago.. those times.. it was v. common to drink to entertain the clients.. eeek it's so bitter, the taste.. dunno why they like.. then it makes me feel giddy, uneasy, cannot see properly, brain doesnt response or function normally, it's like your brain is heated to 100 degrees or izzit like brain freeze feeling. felt like jumping around the place.. haha i looked so dumb and silly. like wanna kiss the ground.. cuz cannot kiss anyone there..lol But it's sad.. i saw young and innocent men at the corner,.. they look cute and decent.. and I think I heard jennifer (a new friend) say, one of them is consuming drugs.. eeeeeks.

so i tried heineken.. so bitter.. probably the not so best beer in the world. i didnt see many youngsters at the pub i went.. mostly are old friendly folks.. haha very cosy.. and no stress. the people just do what they like.. so warm also. that place, they dont play techno.. they play countryside rock? im not sure.. heheees

Think i wont wanna go there anymre until im much older.. one think i hate about the place is the smell.. the people there smoke a lot.. i cant stand the smell. it makes my nose runny.

yeah, so i wenta the gig.. watched 20 dischanger perform. They are very talented.. but not experienced. I could see that they were nervous. yupp. and so cool they are.. can perform in front of like 100 people.. haha.. hope I can be able to do that one day..

and after the band performed.. nadya, jennifer and i walked down the street, a guy about his 20s smiled at me.. winked as he walked pass.. then, i looked back he was still smiling at me.. gosh.. haha so sick.. saw a lot of gothic people also at around 11+

Im supposed to sleep early.. cuz i drank. then tmr, im quite certain i wont wake up early, lucky, i've no work.

Just now i came back.. my brother told me i dont have to work in town anymre.. not at the store.. because he isnt renting it anymre.. he said he cant afford the rent. so no store means i dont have to work there.. but anyway he asked me to go around town to sell some stuff.

yep.. very good deal

why izzit so, because im getting 40 percent.. yea 40!!! commision for the things i sell. I get to choose wadeva i wanna sell. i dont have to report to anywhere to get the stuff or to return the unsold stuff everyday. because i only have to bring the things home.. and can bring out the following morning.. why.. because he is my brother.. keees he stays where i stay. so i return the things to where i go everyday.. which is home..

I chose the item i wanna sell. it's a pair of keychains.. when put together forms a heart shape, and it lights up .. then got a sound saying " I love you". The selling price is 12 bucks. but i still get to decide how much i wanna sell.. cause im doing my own business .. i can give discount to any customer i want.

then.. i thought of this.. if my brother could come up with this, i can do the same too.. i can ask anyone to help me.. they take 35 percent commision.. i take their 5 percent.. if i can find 20 people to work for me in a day.. i earn another 100 percent.. hehees

see if they sell 1 keychain for 12 bucks and get 35 percent, that will be 4.20 bucks for only a keychain they sell.. if they sell 4 in an hour, that will be 16.80 bucks... whoahhhh!! sucha good deal. im sure my frens will want.. whooo hoo.

then i'll let my dad know my plans.. he will support me.

If really everything goes well like i have planned.. i can easily make more than 8 k a month.. that is if i work 10/7 a week for a month.

yep another good thing,...is that I can work any time i want.. cause i work for myself.. im my own boss. i can just hang out with frens..in town.. then tell them im going toilet.. i go somewhere they dunno, and sell 1 or 2.. i get at least 4.80 bucks.

too good to be true huh.. hahas, i aint sure now.. my brother always get jealous.. he might suddenly change his mind.. like the store renting and the job he promised..

At first he allowed me to take charge of the whole store.. whoah.. then pay me at least 5 bucks an hour.. then now he say he will make a loss.. to pay me more than 1k a month.. haha was so excited to have the whole store at orchard to myself. then i could close the store and sleep inside and still get my 5 bucks an hour,..

hainess.. say so much.. at the end of everything.. i might not get a single cent.. mum said the money isnt important. wad matters is that i will learn that how difficult it is to earn money.. so that i wont spend so much.. that is her excuse.. she wants the money i earn..

anyway.. ive set a target for myself.. to earn 1 k in a month.. sounds easy..?? i doubt so.. i said so much so much that it seems so easy.. but.. i know it wont be easy. im still a kid.. will be contented to earn that much of money..

yea.. so im a promoter and a boss. so fun.. it's gonna be challeging to tryna achieve my target ive set.

Heyy.. guys. the lists in the previous post werent arranged in any sort of orderr..  yupp..

My wish list
1) Sony cam corder
2) Video editor software
3) Sum41 DVDs
4) I-pod
5) Electric Guitar
6) Amplifier
7) A pair of shades
8) A new handphone
9) More clothes
10) A new bag
11) More boxers
12) Vans shoes
13) An oven (to bake cakes and cookies)

Things I wanna do
1) Earn my first 1k
2) Learn how to bake cakes
3) Make my first home video and post it on my website
4) Make Astro's Introduction video
5) Renew my passport
6) Shop in Malaysia

"The only pleasure in my life is when I sleep. That's the only time I can escape my life. I love to dream."

"I have no home. I am a member of no one's family. I know deep inside that I do not now, nor will I ever, deserve any love, attention or even recognition as a human being. I am a child called "It"."

"I wish I were someone, anyone but who I am. I wish I had a life, a family, a home."

Taken from "The Lost Boy".. I'm reading it now. It's a true story about the authors real life experiences.

I'm gonna be very busy, can't hang out anymore. Gonna work hard and earn my first K. whoooo that'll be cool. I'll buy a guitar and amplifier, lotsa things... will be working up to 14 hours a day. From 7am to 9pm? plus OT.. i'll work for a month. yea. then play.. all the way. go town, go shopping, go beach, arrrrr so nice .. cant wait. Hope I can keep all the money. My brothers didnt keep the money they earned only after they were 21. So I think my mum is gonna take away all my hard earned money.. sobs.. not sure now. haha but, at least I wont be bored at home. I will still be online after 12am on certain days.. yep.  And on weekends. I can go out.. but will be very very very tired. haah.. then i have to sleep early everyday/... sheeeee. nvm, it's only a month. haha.. gonna playyyyyyyy all the way after december.

It's 5.22am and I'm still awake haha. so dumb. I guess I'm the only idiot online now.

Was doing the code of the video of my blog. Hmm well, a lot more to do. heeeheees. Im real dumb. could've linked the codes from WMP. But I didn't. I did the video on my own. geeeees

Yay.. finally new video.. heees

"Down" by blink-182

So nice. I can hear birds chirping outside. It's 5.45 now.

All right news update..

jason is now part of the team.. he will be the song writer.

we're still searching for:
1) music composer
2) promoter
3) recorder
4) manager, (nah, we don't need one)
5) logo designer
6) website designer - me
7) photographer

Okay... all rights. im feeling so much better now.. yupp

i'm lost and confused.. life is meaningless, no purpose, no direction, no school, no work, no true friend, no care or concern from family.. nothing to look forward to, all messed up.

Back frm town.. feelin' tired now.. I skipped F&N ytd as well as today, gonna skip on thursday too.  Yawn*.. gonna slp now.